FB Quiz

I tend to avoid trying new things, even if they sound cool.
I feel like I don't have anything interesting to say.
If I fell on hard times, I'm not sure that anyone would help me out.
If someone contradicts me, I feel like they don't like me.
Most people I know seem to be living better lives than me.
I think that if I act like your true self, people will dislike me.
I worry that I am being talked about behind my back.
It's hard for me to accept myself the way I am.
I fear rejection from those I care about.
I feel like I often let people down.

I am easily embarrassed.
It's difficult for me to disagree with my friends, even when I strongly feel that I am right.

I'm not sure if I deserve to be loved.
I rarely feel like I did a good job with a task.
I am very indecisive.
In general, I lack energy, even if I've slept well the night before.
I worry about the way I look.
It's fairly hard for me to make friends.
I sometimes feel that if I went away, no one would notice.
I feel uncomfortable when I am in a position of leadership or authority.

How is Your Self Esteem?

You Have Low Self Esteem 88% of the Time

You're definitely in a low place right now, but you also know deep down that you can get out of your funk.Take a chance and make a new friend or try a new interest. Shaking things up will give you the self-esteem boost you need!

I MUST BE CRAZY! (it's all in my head!!)

... i hate u or i hate me??

I think i hate myself

....... maybe i hate u MORE!!

(or i hate myself THE MOST! damn!!)

IF I WAS A MAN.. JUST FOR A DAY
I'D TAKE MY TIME ON YOU
THAT'S WHAT A MAN WOULD DO

If I was a man... just for a day!

Why did I ever like you?
What did I see?
Whatever it was must have been some kind of illusion
A Magic trick on me!
*aku mencik!!

*memetik kata2 Mr.Dodi Long : You don't marry someone you can live with,you marry the person who you cannot live without.

-WHATEVER!!

Award kah atau Tag kah?! dari AYIE!! (hahahaha.. ayie!!)

aku pun tak tau ni award @ mungkinkah aku kena tag oleh sedare yang menggelarkan diri beliau AYIE. *giggles tapi aku memang suka la tag2 ni. at least aku ada idea nak update blog yang tak menarik langsong neh!


Ok, these r the rules :

1)Make a list of what u want on your birthday

2)The list should be 10 numbers

3)post the image of this award to your posting

4)give it to 10 frens of yours

em, what i want for my birthday are :

1- Abang yang ku chenta.. aku nak dia comolot aku! hahahahaahahaha. gila horny!!

2- aku nak mengandung!

3- aku nak bergote dengan Abang jek dari pukul 12tghmlm (27hbln 5) sampai la 12tghmlm (28hbln 5).. kering doh!! (kalu boleh, 24-7!)

hahahahaha.. tu wish yang berlandaskan nafsu serakah (nafsu serakah pun kena bagi 'makan' jugak taww!!). sekarang kita tengok pulak apa wish Datin Paduka yang berlandaskan tuntutan agama & kasih sayang. silakan, tuan2 & puan2...

4- Moga2 Allah panjangkan jodoh aku & Abang sampai akhir hayat kami.

5- Moga2 Allah tetapkan hati+kasih sayang Abang pada aku dan hati+kasih sayang aku pada abang sampai mati.

6- Semoga aku & Abang akan dikurniakan zuriat yang soleh & solehah, sihat, sempurna, berakhlak, bijak, comel (hehe) & baik (macam abang - bukan jahat macam aku).

7- Aku nak sehidup semati dengan Abang.

insya Allah..

okeh, beralih pula kepada kebendaan.. silakan Datin Paduka..

*terima kasih Tuan Pengerusi Majlis

8- aku nak Abang bagi aku pakej menguruskan badan kat SlimWorld ke.. Keep Slim ke.. London Weight Management ke.. ye la, tak perlu aku bersusah payah beraerobik tiap2 ari. huhuhu

9- aku nak candle light dinner ngan Abang macam tahun lepas.

10- moga2 semua wishes aku ni dimakbulkan Allah. amin.

terima kasih, Datin Paduka. kesimpulannya, birthday Datin Paduka tahun ni akan disambut berseorangan kerana Dato' Paduka tidak dapat bersama2 beliau disebabkan tugas yang perlu diutamakan. *syialan!

ok.. & the award goes to :

- azura
- pina
- novee
- shah izhar
- rini
- askilla
- scarxoxo

apa2 pun, semoga wishes Datin Paduka ni akan terkabul... amin.

i'll pray for you.. my BFFs!

entry ni betul2 serius. ekceli ari ni aku ada 'meeting tergempar' dengan Toh Puan Tini Joe. dia datang all the way from Kelantan & kitorang nak 'date' d IKEA. dah lama benar aku tak jumpa dia since zaman anak dara dulu lagi. so, both of us were soooo damn excited 4 the 'dating' la. dah siap pikir baju apa nak pakai cos kitorang plan nak cam-whoring sakan.

tapi, in the sudden, Toh Puan sms aku this afternoon at about 1353hours. this is the sms :

Our meetg Ikea kena cancel. Arissa seizure!! Now at dmsra speaclist. Admitted ward. Im freakg worried! Nk tiok

OMG! aku tekejut sgt! last nite aku rasa arissa was ok. what happened 2 her?? kesian sangat kat Toh Puan Tini Joe. plss sabar, joe! i knew aku tak dapat rasa macamana mung rasa, but i do understand.

fyi, Toh Puan Tini Joe is 1 of my BFFs, kitorang skoolmate d Maher. dia pun otak weng macam aku (walaupun dia was a prefect, weng jugak!). she's now living in KB, Kelantan wit' her hubby & a 3-year-old-baby, tg. tatiana arissa a.k.a. tg. bb / arissa / rockstar. this arissa is sooo cute, adorable & a rockstar wannabe (she loves to sing & dance to the music such s riri). she's very well English spoken.

isn't she adorable?

sooo cute!

at 1923hours, Toh Puan Tini Joe sms lagi :

Dear Friends n Family, Arissa is admitted Dmnsara Specialist Hosp paeditrician ward at 1pm today due to high fever 40 degree over, Tonsilitis swollen, blood infection. She was seizing/fit (sawan) at 11am. Tomoro wil undergo x-ray n refer to ENT (ear, nose, throat) specialist. Pray 4 us, k. TQ

like boo in monster inc!

I will pray 4 both of u, dear Joe! aku betul2 sedih sebab baru few days before anak kedua Dato' Paduka Eli admitted to SMC/SSH sebab problem adenoid & tonsil. Alhamdulillah last Tuesday he's undergo a minor surgery removing his enlarged adenoid. & Alhamdulillah, Thaqif (Dato' Paduka Eli's son) dah discharged & in very well condition now.

a heartbreaker in making! (he's so handsome!)

thaqif with ibu the day after surgery. both soo lovely, kan?

fyi again, Datin Paduka Eli is also my BFF & my old classmate in Maher. She's a mommy of 3 growing kids (a girl+2 boys). She's the elder sis of N.O.V.E.E.

This is a very hard time for them. walaupun aku tak ada anak lagi, but i can understand their feelings. Semoga Allah melindungi mereka. amin.

To Toh Puan & Dato' Pad, pls b patient & aku doakan arissa & thaqif will be fully recovered soon, insya Allah. eventho' i never meet them in person, but i do love & adore ur kids so much! sorry 4 publishing ur pix here w/o ur permission, guys. i'll delete if you want me to.

nota kaki : pangkat2 tu saja diada2kan sebab kitorang memang gila2. sorry!

Toh Puan & Dato' Pad : i love you both so much, buddies! miss u! XOXO

UPDATE ~ Alhamdulillah, baby arissa dah discharged & getting better. Thaqif pun dah sihat. Syukur pada Allah. &, HAPPY 4th ANNIVERSARY TO TOH PUAN TINI JOE & HUBBY... moga korang bahagia selama2nya..amin!

Pondan / mak nyah / bapuk - they r also humans!

Assalamualaikum wrh..

kali ni aku tiba2 rasa nak bercakap pasal pondan atau mengikut kamus bahas argentina selatan juga dikenali sebagai mak nyah, bapok, mak hayam gebuss (bahasa kak azwana ali.. hehe). macam2 la gelaran!

ramai org salu meluat menyampah dengan kaum kak pon ni kan. tapi nape aku tak rasa gitu ye. aku rasa diorang ni baik je, walaopon mulut kadang2 cam syial! hehehehehe. tapi ati diorang baik! (maybe ade yang ati jahat.. tapi segelintir je.)

Mungkin juga sebab kawan2 aku yang kak pon-kak pon ni semua baik2, menyebabkan aku berprasangka baik pada golongan diorang ni... kot?! siyes, kak ponS yang aku kenal semua ati baik, suka tolong2 & x lokek ilmu. aku memang suka kawan dengan diorang ni sebab rasa selamat! (ye la, kalu jantan tulen sasa bagai, mau rabak aku! tak kuasa uolls!!)

aku penah tengok 1 muvee pasal life kak ponS di lorong haji taib, rasa kesian sangat kat diorang! apa yang aku tengok la, bukan diorang nak jadi macam tu... dah tak ada cara lain.. & dah memang gitu naluri diorang. walaopon memang apa yang kak pon-kak pon di lorong haji taib tu buat memang salah, tapi aku tetap kesiankan diorang. tapi, fokus ye kawan2, tak semua kak ponS wat keje haremmjadah! ramai ape yang halal such as make up artist, dancer ec. make up artist aku masa aku kawen dulu pun kak pon jugak tau.. dia bestfren aku dari tecik lagi - siap aku make up tu FOC - s a wedding gift! (thank u, hanif!! XOXO) *sesiapa nak suh adik hanif aku make up kan, contact aku yachss.. insya Allah, aku boleh kenenkan kat dia. fyi, hanif keje s a make up artist for Dior.

ah, jauh aku melalut! wat promosi percuma la pulak. okeh2. tapi kan, body diorang tu semua masyukkkkkkkk kao! lagi meleps daripada aku! jeles aku tengok.. huhuhuhu.. apa2pun, aku tetap asli & abang suka! *ombak*

kesimpulannya, aku tetap hormat semua orang tak kira tulin @ tak selagi diorang tak masuk dalam golongan manusia yang aku tak suka (sila rujuk di sini). dan, jangan kaco laki aku udah! (walaopon laki aku bukannya kendu sangat bagi pandangan orang - tapi, amat kendu di pandangan mata aku weh - &, abang juga mempunyai montot yang mantep & tonggek that really turns me on!! ouchh!! m i so horny??!) *eh, dia ni pun montot tonggek tau! kalu berjalan, hah, tergelek2!! hahahahaha.. jangan marah haa kao! memang fakta, bukan auta.. masihkah anda?! hehehehee

untuk makluman, ramai juga kak pon salu usha abang! (maybe sebab montot kao mantep kot, bang?! hahahaha) walaubagaimanapon, ai wat tak kesah sebab ai tau abang macamana (dia kata dia nak sepak montot kak pon yang usha dia tu - dengan kaki gerga dia okeh!)

*cantik kan? lagi meleps dari aku! huhuhu!*
(pic coutesy of google image)


-sekian, terima kasih-

nota kaki : untuk perkataan yang pelik2 sikit tu, sila rujuk makna di sini. minta maaf banyak2 kat blogger ni kalu isu ni menyentap! tapi aku suka kawan dengan korang tau. banyak ilmu & pengajaran aku boleh dapat.